River of all my years, steps 8 – 18

Last week: River of all my years (steps 1-7)

Step 8: Ascend.

Friday afternoon we drive north out of the city for an hour and then east from Hinckley along rolling hills with state park on the south side of the road, rocky cattle pastures or fallow fields on the north side, small creeks and rivers occasionally flowing under bridges.

We drop down a long, straight hill on the highway and cross the St. Croix and into Wisconsin. A fleeting glimpse of the river: clean water and rock. Lots of rock. Looks stunning and wild.

Step 9: Stage.

We arrive at the canoe rental place that will give us a shuttle about an hour early so we stand around by the cars waiting for our ride. When he gets there, we load the trailer with our canoes and our gear and then follow him a few miles upriver where we leave our cars at our planned take-out.

In the van we drive north and east, twisting and turning, each road turned onto narrow and bumpier than the last.

He deposits us at the county campground at the river’s headwaters around 6 p.m. We are tired and hungry and suddenly alone with two canoes, two dogs, a pile of gear and not much of a clue.

Tents up. Fire started. Dinner prepared. Steaks pan-fried, pan bread made over the coals. Hamm’s and red wine out of a cardboard box.

Then, a while around the fire. Suggestion: S’mores with Nutella. Do it. Wonderful. More than wonderful. (Hat tip: Rainier.)

Young people show up at the site next to us. Then, more show up. They pull their cars up so they can listen to the stereo. They yell. They walk back and forth past our site. Their horny Boxer puppy, sans collar or leash, keeps running over to harass our dogs. They are slow to come retrieve him. This is all tolerable. What comes later is not.

We wait until almost 11:00 until there is absolutely no light left in the western sky. Then we go down to the dam and walk a ways across it away from the campground lights and look up at the stars. Amazing.

Back at camp we’re all ready for bed. Tired from the travel and wanting to get plenty of sleep so we’ll be rested for the next day.

Step 10: Do not sleep.

We lay there for hours listening to the same top 40 song played over and over on the car stereo, to every word spoken by the drunks. Hear talk of throwing beer bottles at any cop who dare show up. Hear someone talk about going back to his car to get his pistols. Hear guy get put in Full Nelson and punch a girl trying to get out of it. People come and go and come and go and come and go. And that same shitty music plays all night.

I feel justified in being a wimp and not wanting to go over and say something.

At 2 or 3 a.m. B and I go over and say something. There are just a few people left around their fire. B says “shut that off” and a snotty girl looks at one of the guys sitting there like “do I have to listen to this loser?” and he nods and she goes and shuts it off. I say “we’re just trying to sleep” and we turn and walk back to our tents.

Cops come later and take away whoever is still there.

Step 11: Awake.

It is a beautiful morning and none of us rested. But we’re awake by 7:30, knowing there’s no point in trying to sleep any longer. We figure on a much quieter campsite tonight, all alone on the river somewhere.

Coffee and tea and oatmeal for breakfast. Breaking down camp goes pretty quick and soon we are standing by the water just below the dam with a pile of gear, two canoes, two dogs, and not much of a clue of what we’re in for.

Step 12: Embark.

The dogs don’t have much canoe experience. Almost none actually. We paddle away from the landing with the ladies in the bow facing backwards to hold onto the dogs in the front compartments.


There is a short and wide lake below the dam where the river starts. We paddle across it and as soon as it narrows into the river proper we scrape bedrock.

We are soon out of the canoes and dragging them. For the first time. I grab the bow and study the water ahead, trying to see where there might be enough to float our vessel.

Sometimes I spot it, sometimes I don’t. I drag the canoe over bedrock, boulders, gravel and sand.

At intervals there is enough water for a few hundred yards and we paddle leisurely, wondering if maybe it was just that first little bit below the dam that was bad.

It wasn’t.

We plod along. I quietly look around every bend for the first campsite marked on the map that will tell us we’ve made two miles. It is a long time coming.

There is a long set of Class I rapids with a short bit that might count as Class II at the bottom. As B and Rainier line their canoe down, Rosie and I decide to shoot it. We let Lola out so she can catch up with the others and we head down into it. As we pass them in mid-set, Lola sees us and decides to follow. The memory of barely maneuvering through a tight gap between two boulders and looking back to see her do the same is forever burned in my memory.

Below the rapids we see the campsite we’ve been waiting to see. It’s lunchtime and we take a much-needed break. We aren’t making the progress we need to be making to make the 24 miles we’ve committed to with our cars waiting for us downstream. I feel the first twinge of “what have I gotten us into?”

The optimism of the whole crew rules the day though. Maybe it’ll get better. We don’t linger long after lunch, but are back in the canoes with full bellies and the belief that there can only be more water the further downstream we get.

Step 13: “Oh my god.”

So is the final straw announced. Rosie in the bow with Lola says it and I hear something unpleasant in her voice.

She can’t describe what’s wrong with Lola but it’s enough for all of us to head directly for shore and leap out. When I get to the bow I see my dog’s whole face puffing up, especially around her eyes and mouth.

I don’t know what to do.

We take an almost-melted ice pack out of our cooler and I hold it over her eyes. Rosie digs through the first aid kit, Rainier finds some anti-itch wipes that the dog doesn’t seem to like. We are all standing around in an especially mucky spot of water. Lola’s face is swelling more every minute.

We are six or seven miles from the next landing. I remember exalting in the remoteness of this stretch while planning the trip. Our cars are another 15 or 20 miles by road from that landing.

I don’t know what to do.

Step 14: Move.

We have no choice. We have no plan. We get back in the canoes and B and Rainier tell us to just go, don’t wait for them. So we do.

Rosie in the bow holds her hat over Lola’s face to keep the sun off her and I paddle. It isn’t long before we hit bottom. I lunge out of the stern and shove the canoe over gravel toward deeper water. Back in and I’m paddling as hard as I can.

I do this for hours and miles and hours. The dog’s whole head swells up to twice its normal size, she is unrecognizable. For a time her eyes are swollen shut. She drifts off to sleep in the bow.

I leap in and out of the canoe, either pushing or pulling it over rocks and gravel. I slip and fall once on the slimy rocks. It is not graceful. Rosie paddles when she can but mostly she attends to our puppy.

We reach a stretch where the river is deep for at least a mile or two as it winds through a broad valley. It is truly beautiful. Like a garden. Perhaps the shallow stuff is behind us. It never goes straight though, rather just twisting and turning over a sandy bottom.

I feel fear and love in their purest forms. I am unfamiliar with the intensity, nothing else matters.

Step 15: Don’t stop.

She must have been attacked by hornets, we theorize. Later I hear how some labs will find ground hornets and attack their nests. Or maybe it was the horseflies. Who knows.

I don’t now remember much about those miles and hours. It seemed an impossibly long time and distance. I didn’t know what I was racing for, but all I could think was that we had seen it go from a few swollen spots to her whole head, where would it stop? What if she started having trouble breathing? What if she fell asleep and wouldn’t wake up? What then?

And I felt helpless and paddling and pushing myself was the only thing I could do.

We reach the old Coppermine Dam and find the water too low to even consider shooting it. So I yank our gear out of the canoe and run it over the portage, then back and we let the dog out and she seems halfway normal except for her abnormal appearance and she runs right over with us as we lug the canoe over and then I get the gear back in and then Rosie and Lola and I shove off again.

The river is speckled with rocks jutting above the surface. A maze. And that’s just the visible stuff. It’s the ever-changing bottom that kills me. As the sun drops lower on the water, the glare gets worse and it’s impossible to even guess where the floatable channel might be.

We nose into a campsite a ways downstream to see if she’ll drink. She is fast asleep and doesn’t awake when we bump shore. There is the briefest but longest moment as she is unresponsive to Rosie’s nudging, but then she comes out of her deep slumber and jumps out of the canoe.

The stop at the campsite is a dark memory now. I was exhausted and simply did not know what to do. I felt sick about leaving Rainier and B upstream. What if something had happened to them? There was nobody coming down behind them to help. And what was I going to do when we got to that landing anyway?

Lola drinks a little water and we rest a minute and decide against waiting for our partners. A plan starts to take shape in our minds: get to the landing, I’ll hitchhike down to the car and then get back to the landing where we can load up and hopefully our friends will join us shortly after that and we can give them a ride to their car and then get our dog somewhere where something can be done for her.

Step 16: Push.

We shoot a long stretch of riffles that we actually manage to float most of, bumping off rocks (“It doesn’t have to be pretty, we just have to get down it”) and glancing sideways off one so badly that I see the gunwale dive toward the surface, almost catching the water, and Rosie and Lola are almost thrown from the bow, but we recover.

It goes on for a long time. The river is still beautiful. White pines and rock and whitetail deer drinking in the shallows and melting into the woods at our approach without ever lifting their tails in alarm.

It’s hard to believe, but the landing does eventually appear. I first notice some powerlines over the river around the next bend. Then I catch sight of the bridge itself and we shoot one last little ledge and across a pool and are there.

I am exhausted. I have nothing left. Rosie too. We pull the gear from the canoe and then pull it up onto the grass and I walk right up to the road to catch that ride downriver.

Step 17: Thumb.

And I stand there.

For 10 minutes. 15 minutes. It is hot on the side of that lonely road, the heat coming up off the asphalt. And not a car goes by. Then two do, but they’re going the wrong way and give my quizzical or uncaring glances.

Then a car does come over the hill toward me and I stick my thumb out way too early, feeling a little silly, and they put the brakes on a hundred yards up the road and slow down so gradually toward me I can’t tell if they’re actually slowing.

But they do and they roll down their window and I give them a confused explanation and there seems to be no question that they’ll give me a ride, they’re heading that way anyway. They are a middle-aged couple heading back to the Twin Cities after spending some time at their land up in these parts.

In the car I catch the occasional whiff of booze. It’s not strong and he’s holding his lane just fine. We see very few other cars. Just the broad expanses and long distances of northwest Wisconsin. He tells me more than once that he wouldn’t have left his wife up there alone with all the Indians around here.

When we get to Riverside they go off to use the can and I leap into our car, then drive very fast back the way I just came.

We are just tying the canoe down on top of the car when we hear B and Rainier’s dog Quercus barking upriver. I have never been so happy to hear his barking. We watch them shoot the last little set like a couple of pros and coast into the landing, all of us wearing big smiles for the first time in a while. Lola is looking a little better already and we’ve all made it off the river safe and sound.

There’s not much more to the story. On our way home we pick up some Benadryl and give it to Lola with peanut butter and she sleeps for the whole drive. We get a hold of our vet and he tells us that was the right thing to do. Less than 24 hours later, Lola looked just like her old self.

Step 18: Lament.

So the trip wasn’t the trip I had planned and not at all what anyone had expected. And though for quite a bit of that time as I fought the river I didn’t know if I could ever see it the same way, ever love it the same way, maybe ever want to paddle it again, now I see that perhaps we had to be acquainted in such a way. Perhaps I’d given it love without the proper amount of respect.

We way over-committed ourselves trying to do 24 miles. I don’t know what I was thinking. And with such questionable water conditions, we would have been far better off doing a day trip so our canoes wouldn’t have been so burdened with gear. We woud have floated over a lot more, and pulling and pushing them wouldn’t have been so difficult.

And I would have brought Benadryl.

Nonetheless, I’m already back to feeling like the St. Croix might be not be so bad. At least, it’s ambivalent, as all the great forces are. And I’m also slowly convincing myself that it wasn’t all my fault. And that trying to canoe the whole thing isn’t a bad idea, but I think I’ll wait until the peak of high water next spring to try the next leg.

15 thoughts on “River of all my years, steps 8 – 18

  1. Deb

    What a bummer! I'm glad Lola is okay. How scary!

    Once you get south of Highway 48/77, it shouldn't be that hard paddling in most places. Well, most places I've seen, that is. Which isn't that much of the river. Come to think of it, maybe you should wait till spring! :)

  2. scott

    For as horrible a time as it was for you at the time it did make for quite the good read ;o)  Times of adversity are the memories I find to remember the most myself and I'm sure it was definitely a learning experience.  I know I wouldn't have thought to bring any Benadryl and I shall start bringing it when I take my dogs out in the woods from now on.

    Tell me you found a second or two to snap a photo of ole poor Lola?

  3. Rainier

    That was a fantastic recap of our trip, really. Made me feel like I was reliving some parts of it. I’m really glad you wrote it.

    I’m ready to get back into the canoe and go again (not again in the same place, but again out on the water). Let’s find a lake and head on out!

  4. Greg Post author

    Thanks for the comments everyone. Glad you all enjoyed the story, I thought it was waaay too long when I posted it, but it seems that at least five people made it through the whole thing!

    Deb – I’m definitely going to trust the river gauge readings provided by the USGS, Army Corps, and the NPS from now on. I think I’d still like to try to “complete” the river, but I’m going to wait until next spring when water levels are at their highest… That’ll mean more challenging whitewater and I’m not sure my partners from last weekend feel like heading bac up that way, but we shall see. This summer, if we return to the St. Croix, we will probably do sections quite a bit further down, perhaps from St. Croix State Park down. We’ll see.

    TMF – I like that, “absence of adversity is boring”… I have to say, I like experiences that make for “good stories” but this one was so unpleasant when I was in the moment that I really struggled with writing about it. It was a good experience to write it though, because I think I was ultimately able to do it justice without feeling like I was exploiting the misfortune, etc.

    Scott – Definitely a learning experience. Imagine all the lessons I can credit to those hours. Unfortunately, no photo. We realized during the ordeal that we would want a picture later, but we never really felt like obliging that desire, much less stopping to dig the camera out. I wish I had one, but alas…

    Rainier – so glad to hear that I did our experience justice with the piece. I’m glad I wrote it too, and glad I had such strong, never-give-up, never complain partners. You guys kicked some ass. Let’s definitely get back out in the canoes again soon, but let’s go somewhere with enough water!

    Pete – Yeah, I’m glad she made a speedy recovery too and I’m definitely hoping our next trip goes a little smoother. Our last trip, to the BWCA last fall, was a little rough at times too, I feel like I kind of deserve an “easy” trip pretty soon!

    Thanks again for the comments everyone!

  5. rosie

    bum, that was so well written, though hard to read for the sheer desire i have to put it all out of mind. we’ll get back up there. we’ll have to. i don’t think i would want to live my life avoiding that stretch, avoiding that memory, or avoiding the adversity as the mad fishicist said.

    but right now, i really do want an easy paddle, a beer in one hand and a fishing pole in the other with a big, juicy walleye on the biting end.

  6. Greg Post author

    and that’s why I love her, folks. :) the resolve to return and finish what we started, but the shared yearning for a “low-adversity” trip for the time being.

  7. eric

    Wow! Sorry things went so wrong for you – I hope everyone gets back in a canoe for another try really soon. In case you’re interested, the St. Louis River seems to possess many qualities of the St. Croix. I’ve made a dozen trips by putting in on Hwy. 7 in Forbes MN and floating downstream. There are several DNR campsites and lots of undeveloped public land on the way, and the river seems to go under a county road at half-day intervals. Plus, there are no people and few rocks – it’s a nice sandy float and the fishing is good. The deerflies will be bad now, but in May, early June, and late August you’ll not find a nicer river trip. I’m not sure what the guy meant by “indians,” but if you’re drinking Hamm’s beer, the Rangers will leave you alone. ;-)

  8. Greg Post author

    I got the book “Paddling Minnesota” this spring and I recall reading a description of the St. Louis… it sounded really nice and your comments certainly affirm that. “Few rocks,” I like that!

    The St. Croix, being my “home river,” has a certain priority in my mind, and I feel like I should wait to start tackling this state’s seemingly infinite other paddling opportunities (the BWCAW aside, of course) until we’ve finished that river… I figure if I can paddle the St. Croix from top-to-bottom I’ll feel fit enough to explore some other rivers.

    Anyway, thanks for the tip and happy paddling!

  9. Randy

    Greg, that’s a crazy day on the water, for sure. Thanks for telling the story. I recall a similar day in the outdoors when my dog lost a dew (sp?) claw and was a bloody mess.

    A good, lazy day on the river (not to usurp the beauty of the St. Croix), might include the Root River from Lanesboro to Rushford. Slow water, plenty of fish (trout AND walleye), and yes…beer. :)

  10. Greg Post author

    Hey Randy – the business with the dew claw does not sound fun! That sounds pretty awful actually… great, one more thing for me to worry about. I told Rosie the other day that I don’t think we’re ever going to let Lola out of the yard again. That just confirms that was the right call! :D I’m kidding of course, but thanks for the empathy.

    The Root sounds great. Don’t mean to seem like I’m stubbornly sticking with the St. Croix… I’m just almost overwhelmed with all the fantastic paddling options around here. Are there smallies in that section of the Root too? Thanks for the comment, keep in touch.

  11. Night Editor

    Thanks for the tip to read through your St. Croix posts. This was some adventure! Great story and suspense.

    Q: Smallies? Are these small-mouth bass?
    Q: S’mores with nutella? Just the graham crackers and the nutella or also marshmallows?

  12. Greg Post author

    Thanks! Glad you liked it.

    Smallies are indeed smallmouth bass.

    Nutella s’mores:

    • Graham crackers
    • Nutella
    • Marshmallow
    • Chocolate (if you’re daring)

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